Beautiful Chi - Lost then Found

I am shocked and stunned twice in as many weeks. Crestfallen and Lost then shockingly Happy giving way to simply not having the capacity to believe someone would ever say another person has passed away. Such sickness is abhorrent and will bring about it's own retribution.

Chi IS an amazing human being never taking anything for herself and always giving to others. She HAS such a beautiful soul with deep wisdom. Chi, hopefully will still call me her Moonbeam and I will still always remember her telling me to go shame the sun into shining.

Chi makes my life shine and I am certain she does this for all who are so very blessed to know. Shine on forever sweet Chi. I love you!

A Strengthening Calm

Beauty in Silence

Stillness, Hushed...and Silent

A Strengthening Calm

Thoughts Rush By

So many thoughts rush forward passing swiftly in succession; glimpses as tattered ribbons of understanding. They race beyond my grasp. Listless, I cannot reach forward to find a catch hold to go with them, to leave.

An almost comforting void of feeling draws me down to close my eyes and rest in peaceful silence; a prayer for simple acceptance without making any demands on Understanding.

In Hope's passion, we want so much more to be real than truly is.

Muse

I am like the canvas stretched tight and dryed against the frame feeling her fingers touching me, rubbing me, preparing me and pressing out the few sparse wrinkles against the hard wood.

Soon she will trail the cool thick paint smoothing it over me.

I love her touch against my sides holding me firmly in her strong artist's hand....she pours forth her soul. Creating me.

A tear splash. I soak it up lovingly in the fibers of my being and come to life.

She is my sweet muse, my artist, my poet, my shaman, my lover.

Believe

I had a discussion with an atheist last night which was very different and a bit unsettling how I know it will limit and possibly end our friendship.

I'm still thinking about the exchange and my feelings about it. I believe that pure cold rational intellect has its place but I've discovered in myself that such a cold position cannot be consistent with my warm friendship.

I do not foist my beliefs on anyone and I am definitely not a bible thumper and I have real concerns with most organized religions. It was a stark sharp realization inside myself how much I realized I could never be close to an atheist.

a= meaning against

theism= meaning God

Anyone who is against the notion of a being or force or even beauty grace and truth above our human fraility is entitled to her own thoughts of course...

Atheists call themselves "Free Thinkers" but they do not have a lock on free thinking. They say they have a moral framework an ethical foundation and they say they are empathetic as part of their foundation. These are all good foundational concepts on how to behave and interract with others.

For me, I believe in magic, I believe in grace, I believe in the miracle of truth, I believe in something greater than myself to aspire to...Cold crisp intellect can be a cop out as much as blind faith is.

I believe we each have THE journey to attend to and it is difficult and it will require all our faculties...intellect and emotion, intuition and faith and some things we have yet to experience but we will...

I feel that an atheist is on a different journey than I am...This person I spoke with said there is no hope and that it is a waste of energy to hope. How sad and limiting this is...

Any great discovery and breakthrough change man has made has come from the "spark." Great art, great music, even great science all touches this "spark"

I wish each and everyone renewed Hope and may you each touch the "spark" and lift others around you to Hope and Shine forever along their journey...

Hide and Seek

Longing to give, Longing to feel

Fragile, naive, without experience

Wanting you to choose me

Wanting you to take me

Find me

I'm already yours

Fae Dream

Wisps of fog and mist drift upon the surface of a lake

Looking out. Looking back. Reflecting.

Translucent veil of meaning insulating me

but I wait

Now afraid of the clearing breeze which will reveal

the looming shape of Truth on the distant shore

Blue Light

Sometimes we feel small

but we always have meaning

Sequoia

Take me to the tip of the tallest treetops and there tell me you love me as we look out as far as we can see.

Take me to the foot of the oldest living trees and there pray with them for our happiness together.

Oh how their love for the moon and stars has grown over thousands of years. The romance of every night sky nurtures their souls making time standstill for all eternity as they live forever.

Dying Passion

Drifting slowly away, gradually, slightly, even without discomfort. What is this incidious thief who takes all that used to be so wonderful? Little by little and piece by piece the magic disappears as if pulled gently apart until the tiny parts fade away into darkness unnoticed.

Passion's dying; ripped from the heavens; cast from the brilliance of stars. Falling alone and afraid. Slipping down through dirty cotton clouds posing as substance but offering none. Falling farther and farther away from its highest heights. Screaming in anguish then crashing upon dark wet rocks. Searing pain gives way to lifelessness.

Sharp gasp; hand clenching my breast steadying my heart; holding, seeking, hoping. Feeling the lonely drumming against the place that was once so full. Breath slowly escapes in a long thin wisp of a sigh. Is it too late? Is it gone?

There is such emptiness, but there is no pain in emptiness.

Sorrow creeps forward only in thought.

Using Time

Alone

Always Alone

Drifting

Using Time

Exploring

Dark Recesses

Lost

Without You

Buddha's got her back for me...

Several weeks ago I wondered and posted...

Can thoughts alone right the world?

Our thoughts are endless and create all reality but oh how wonderful and frightening this really can be. We must think openly with boundless freedom. We must think great things but dwell always on Goodness and Grace. We need to learn to cease negative thoughts and overlook the bad we might see in others. But also be careful and alert, and avoid toxic negative people.

Messages come to us in all manner and form if we simply open our eyes and heart. Yesterday, I saw this on the back of the T-shirt of a woman sitting in front of me...

"All that we are is the result of what we have thought.

The mind is everything.

What we think we become."

- Buddha

Righting ourselves in right thinking are the footsteps towards righting the world...

It's not what it seems

It's not what it seems
but the hurt you feel is real
It's not what it seems
but you left suddenly sad and angry

It's not what it seems
but you hide and cover your heart
It's not what it seems
but you feel hurt and mistrust

It's not what it seems
but you remember how you hate this feeling
It's not what it seems
but you begin to wound and bleed in pain

It's not what it seems
but you begin to close your heart again

Oh how I wish that everything I do will keep you strong and never hurt you. I want always to make you free, free to feel, free to explore, free to learn, free to grow, free to know love. I want always to be your sanctuary, your refuge, the strong fertile earth beneath your steps.

Feel safe and confident and take me with you to all your special places. Take me to the tip of the tallest treetops and there tell me you love me as we look out as far as we can see. Take me to the foot of the oldest living trees and there pray with them for our happiness together. Oh how their love for the moon and stars has grown over thousands of years. The romance of every night sky nurtures their souls making time standstill for all eternity as they live forever.

Lie with me in a bed of wildflowers and let us look at the heavens and feel the millions of sparkling diamonds against the black vastness of space. Take me in all the colors of splendor up to other worlds and let us make glisten the stars of their heavens as we smile softly looking into deep loving eyes mirrors of peace, calm, confidence, connection and contentedness. Millions of possibilities welling up inside us will always pour forth new experiences, new thoughts, new feelings, new understandings, fresh and vibrantly alive...

It's not what it seems
I am yours forever

Lovers Hour

I am the dragonfly that lights upon the moist flower
I am the smell of the forest mist morning shower
I am the sweet raindrop wet upon your lips
I am the rough lapping of the kitten's kiss

I am the gentle breeze swirling and lifting your clothes
I am the blood red petals fallen from a rose
I am the gasp of passion's sigh and memory's scent of musk
I am the song of the whip-poor-will from somewhere in the dusk

I am the moonbeam that lights your lover's path
I am the water warm and slippery in your evening bath
I am the feeling of your skin tingling swollen and taut
I am the tension and exciting rush of thought

I am the smile you feel from your lover's gaze
I am the gasp then racing heart from what your lover's says
I am the pull of hair gathered tight in your lover's grip
I am the firm bending kiss upon your wanting lips

I am the leather you feel binding 'round your wrist
I am the quiet trust you feel with each lover's twist
I am the stretched muscles in your shoulders; arms held fast behind
I am the glistening beads of sweat now dripping down your spine

I am the dragonfly that lights upon the moist flower
I am the timelessness of your lover's hour

Fleeting Moments

Flame flickers fragile against even the slightest breeze
Light glows sensual and warm but wobbles and waivers

Suddenly extinguished

A wisp of white smoke disappears into darkness

Wisps of fog and mist drift upon the surface of a lake
Looking out. Looking back. Reflecting.
Translucent veil of meaning insulating me but I wait
Now afraid of the clearing breeze which will reveal
the looming shape of Truth on the distant shore

We felt each other
We felt comfort
We felt peace
We felt safe
We felt grounded
We felt accepted
We felt cared for
We felt mercy
We felt grace
We felt kindness
We felt giving
We felt receiving
We felt alive

We stopped feeling
We began to think

All that was rich, thick and real
Instantly turned into wisps of mist and vanished
on the slight breeze

We felt sadness
We felt fragile
We felt flat razor thin
We felt empty
We felt alone

Oh precious fleeting moment
May you pass my way again and in my promise
I will be still and cherish your fragile flame

Revealing new meaning

Another fun wordle from my recent posts revealing new meaning:

Need Simple Living

Great Body

Thought Clouds

Give Love Now

Learn Everything

Pass Others Hope

Need Nothing

See Beauty

Create Beyond Life

World Friendship

Dark Clouds

Do not focus on dark clouds

Instead look at the beauty of the sun's rays

filtering down through them

We cannot see the sun's rays on a sunny day

Dark clouds are needed to reveal their beauty

Sighing softly...

Everything is perfectly all right

Always has been and always will be

Simply Untitled

Can thoughts alone right the world?

Our thoughts are endless and create all reality but oh how wonderful and frightening this really can be. We must think openly with boundless freedom. We must think great things but dwell always on Goodness and Grace. We need to learn to cease negative thoughts and overlook the bad we might see in others. But also be careful and alert, and avoid toxic negative people.

Does all the knowledge of the Shaman exist in a simple friendship? Can we truly learn how to give ourselves to others in real friendship? Friendship is love in action. What can we do to give others happiness and fulfillment? What can we do to give others peace and grace? Is anything other than this even worth our energies?

We all enter the world the same way coming into life from Life, never alone. We arrive through the body of our living mother and are part of her and part of our father. Mostly we are expected and welcomed in love but we are always part of everyone before us and will be part of everyone that will come after us when we have our own children. But we will die alone. Perhaps a loved one may sit or stand nearby, perhaps our death might even be expected and perhaps if there is great pain and suffering it may even be welcomed. However, we will not pass through the body of another living being, we will give up our own body and pass on in spirit bringing all our soulful experiences to another realm of opportunity and learning. We know not to where we will pass but we do know that in this world we will live on in the thoughts of others and we can live forever through those true gifts given here while living. Think now on those who have left a lasting impression in this world, many are those who have taught us how to live better lives with and for one another. Many have shown us great art giving us lifetimes of lasting hope and joy. All have been great teachers imparting truth and light long beyond their grave.

We find that we need each other to become larger than ourselves. We have learned to swim, to run, to fly all faster than any speed of this world with our boats and cars and planes. We have even learned to leave this world to travel in space and return again safe and sound. No other creature can do these things but we cannot do them alone. We need to live together, to learn together, to grow together.

Let us discover and rediscover the great men and women among us and those who have lived before. May we learn their message and live their dream even now as we see the unfolding message of the recent King. As he hoped, let us each be measured by the content of our character and live in this world now for things greater than ourselves for the end is death and death is weak, shallow and nothing, nothing at all...

Torrent of Blessings

Lift up your head to see, truly see all that is around you

Open wide your heart to feel,

feel outside yourself so you can feel others

Peacefully quiet your mind to hear and

listen to your feelings for understanding

Breathe deep the fragrance
Sweet honeysuckle soon blooms
Even now gardenia petals lay thick and swollen
Butterflies and Bees drink in a frenzied lust

Things needlessly difficult fall away and crumble into clouds of dust
Be gone all jealousy, worry, doubt, fear, selfishness and mistrust

Things exceedingly simple miraculously appear

with gentle grace and elegance

Refreshed wonders of Spring blossom into

the sweet romance of Summer

Oh the simple union of Faith and Hope

which brings everything into being

Joy and kindness, patience and charity,

acceptance and love emerge effortlessly

We must ignite the spark of beauty within us and

let flow the torrent of blessings

Longing for the Sweet Big Oh

This is the wordle from my sparse April posts. Sorry, but I couldn't resist noticing...

...Longing for the Sweet Big Oh...

Perhaps there might have been deeper meaning in some of my posts, but it took the wordle program to scramble it up and create some silly fun with perhaps more truth in it than I care to admit!!

Hee Hee